Hiatus: 2016 Intentions

I apologize for such a prolonged hiatus, life has been crazy and I’ve been using that as an unnecessary excuse to hold myself back. Even on my busiest days, I generally have an hour or two between jobs that I sit and just fiddle around doing nothing. Sometimes, though, I feel as if I get caught in this productivity loop of researching ways to be more productive and forgetting to address the tasks I really need to accomplish. Over the years, I’ve found that putting my intentions out in the internet keeps me a bit more accountable than when I just keep them to myself. Another thing I fully believe in is setting intentions over setting resolutions. To resolve something means you’re fixing a problem, and implying that something about you is a problem. This bothers me, we should resolve to fix things that we view as problems in ourselves because we’re only human. We’re flawed. We’re beautiful. We make mistakes. Instead, I think we should set intentions to better ourselves. It still involves change, it still involves goals, but it’s not putting the notion into the world that there’s something wrong with you, because there isn’t, you’re a human.

Now that we’ve set that straight, I’m going to share with you the intentions I have for myself in 2016…

Meditation: Minimum 10 minutes daily
This kind of goes hand-in-hand with my 100 days of meditation challenge. The point isn’t that I sit daily, but to create a habit of adding meditation to my life. I think meditation is a very important health measure that is often missed. Meditation has been shown to have a multitude of benefits and can help where modern medicine sometimes falls short.

Yoga: 3x per week
I love the way that yoga makes me feel. I love all of the different positions I can move my body into. Mostly, I love that yoga can balance me even on the days I feel as if I’ll never find my balance again. As kind of a sub-intention, I would love to hit my full scorpion in floor yoga, aerial yoga and whatever it translates to on the pole.

Debt: Cut it in half
My personal debt is currently sitting at $45,803.69. This is a mixture of student loan debt, credit card debt and a car loan. There’s a long story on why I got into this much debt, but that’s a story for another day. In all realities, I want to focus more on paying off $20,000 worth of my debt this year which isn’t quite half, but I figured it was a good number to aim for.

Income: Diversify/Have multiple streams
This is definitely in direct relation to how much debt I want to pay off this upcoming year (well 11 months). Over the next year, I’m going to challenge myself to research other streams of income, work on building my own business, and getting myself into a stable place financially.

These are the 4 biggest intentions I’ve set for myself over the course of the next year and I plan on posting updates, and other various things pertaining to each. I may add in more, but we’ll just take this journey day-by-day.

 

Namaste.

100 Day Meditation Challenge

Whoa, two posts in one day? Now that’s just crazy talk. Have you ever just jumped in to something, and ran full speed towards it, but hesitated at the last second? I feel like that’s exactly what happened with this blog. I was incredibly excited to start it and get things rolling and then I reached the edge of the cliff and I just couldn’t jump. I could probably use years of therapy, but up until recently have been too stubborn to admit it. I used to see it as something bad to need therapy, but I’ve come to the realization that it can only better my life. Silently, I’ve always suffered from anxiety, depression and eating disorders. Due to these things I carry around a lot of self doubt, unnecessary baggage, and many other things that I know hold me back in my day to day life. Yet, despite how much I hold myself back every once in a while that distorted veil I see the world through breaks open and reveals the kind of person I truly am and other people can see.

So what does any of that have to do with anything relevant? Well, you see, there was one time, when I was a freshmen in college that I caved for like five minutes and went to see a therapist. He was the therapist my parents sent my little brother to when they got divorced and he started having anger issues. The trigger of this visit was that I had an anxiety attack in the middle of my first college exam, and I walked in there 100% expecting to be handed a prescription for a medication. I live in the U.S. and that’s the norm here. Oh, you have a problem? Here take this drug that has a long list of side affects that we will later treat with other drugs. Sorry, I’m getting side tracked now, I promise, no more medical system bashing… Anywho, what I got was something that would strike a chord with me and stick with me even when my life ended up all sorts of topsy-turvy. He prescribed me meditation, once a day, for a minimum of 5 minutes. He even provided me with a book to read called The Relaxation Response and gave me a guided meditation.

Now, this was 4 years ago, and I can’t even begin to explain the things that have happened in the past 4 years, but I can tell you that meditation completely changed my life. I fell out of practice just a few months after this prescription, but I always find myself wandering back around to it. Well, this is one of those times where my spirit wandered back around and actually persistently stuck with me for a few weeks. My life has been so crazy hectic this past year, and I’m in desperate need of some balance.

So, without further ado, the real reason I sat down behind the keyboard tonight. I’ve decided that I need to challenge myself to find that balance, to bring the calm back in to my life, and maybe make some long overdue changes. Today marks the 1st of 100 days straight of meditation. I don’t care how crazy my schedule looks (I’m currently scheduled to work 6 days this upcoming week), I’m going to make sure I sit, for a minimum of 5 minutes a day, and just be still.

Today I did 8 minutes, because it’s a really bad idea to drink Celestial Sleepytime Tea and then sit down, in the dark, and listen to a calming meditation. I wouldn’t recommend it.

Has your life become a whirlwind of crazy? Are you over-working yourself to make ends meet? Is your stomach constantly in knots because you’ve got a world of worries on your shoulders? Are you none of the above? I challenge everyone, to follow along with me on this journey. It’s going to be a bumpy road, and some days 5 minutes may feel like an eternity, other days 40 minutes will fly by so fast you won’t even realize the world won’t collapse without you for a while. I promise, we’re in this together.

Namaste