The past two days have been rough, I have been really struggling to sit. Today I only made it through about 6 minutes of my session before I gave up in frustration. I really want to create a meditation habit, but I think I’m so frazzled with work that I can’t even seem to calm down enough to sit. Thankfully I have Sunday, Monday and Tuesday off of work to unpack and work on relaxing. That’s exactly what I intend to do. So I apologize I don’t have two days worth of thoughts to share, I’ve been barely able to keep still for five minutes.
Today I was exhausted but couldn’t seem to fall asleep for a nap after I got home from work. I’ve noticed that I’ve been incredibly lonely recently. I’m missing my little brothers senior year of high school because I’m half way across the country from him. I work all the time so I have no friends outside of work. I’m never down in the city and see friends from college.
I feel like I’m slowly becoming more and more cut off from the world. Honestly none of that has anything to do with my session tonight. There were no words in meditation. Just music today. I sat. I guided myself back when I found myself off track. Nothing special. Guess I have to write today off as a bad day with nothing to say.