Out of whack

I’ve been feeling so out of whack recently. I’m not sure if it’s because of my crazy work schedule or if there’s something else affecting me. It’s like I have all of these desires and goals but I can’t seem to follow through with them. Anyone have any ideas of how to get out of the funk?

Game Plans

What do you do when you know you need a plan for something, but you’re not really sure where to start? I know the most successful way to achieve goals or intentions is to plan them out, set a fast approaching deadline and go from there, but I just feel like I don’t really know where to start. Bah humbug. I’ll try and have a game plan together and talk about it Sunday.

Hiatus: 2016 Intentions

I apologize for such a prolonged hiatus, life has been crazy and I’ve been using that as an unnecessary excuse to hold myself back. Even on my busiest days, I generally have an hour or two between jobs that I sit and just fiddle around doing nothing. Sometimes, though, I feel as if I get caught in this productivity loop of researching ways to be more productive and forgetting to address the tasks I really need to accomplish. Over the years, I’ve found that putting my intentions out in the internet keeps me a bit more accountable than when I just keep them to myself. Another thing I fully believe in is setting intentions over setting resolutions. To resolve something means you’re fixing a problem, and implying that something about you is a problem. This bothers me, we should resolve to fix things that we view as problems in ourselves because we’re only human. We’re flawed. We’re beautiful. We make mistakes. Instead, I think we should set intentions to better ourselves. It still involves change, it still involves goals, but it’s not putting the notion into the world that there’s something wrong with you, because there isn’t, you’re a human.

Now that we’ve set that straight, I’m going to share with you the intentions I have for myself in 2016…

Meditation: Minimum 10 minutes daily
This kind of goes hand-in-hand with my 100 days of meditation challenge. The point isn’t that I sit daily, but to create a habit of adding meditation to my life. I think meditation is a very important health measure that is often missed. Meditation has been shown to have a multitude of benefits and can help where modern medicine sometimes falls short.

Yoga: 3x per week
I love the way that yoga makes me feel. I love all of the different positions I can move my body into. Mostly, I love that yoga can balance me even on the days I feel as if I’ll never find my balance again. As kind of a sub-intention, I would love to hit my full scorpion in floor yoga, aerial yoga and whatever it translates to on the pole.

Debt: Cut it in half
My personal debt is currently sitting at $45,803.69. This is a mixture of student loan debt, credit card debt and a car loan. There’s a long story on why I got into this much debt, but that’s a story for another day. In all realities, I want to focus more on paying off $20,000 worth of my debt this year which isn’t quite half, but I figured it was a good number to aim for.

Income: Diversify/Have multiple streams
This is definitely in direct relation to how much debt I want to pay off this upcoming year (well 11 months). Over the next year, I’m going to challenge myself to research other streams of income, work on building my own business, and getting myself into a stable place financially.

These are the 4 biggest intentions I’ve set for myself over the course of the next year and I plan on posting updates, and other various things pertaining to each. I may add in more, but we’ll just take this journey day-by-day.

 

Namaste.

100 Days of Meditation Day 17: Hiatus

So I haven’t posted in 5 days, but that doesn’t mean I gave up on my challenge. I’ve just had a lot going on between work and home. Things have been frustrating and chaotic. I haven’t had the best focus, but I’m making an effort to sit, that’s all that matters right?

I know that the more chaotic life is the longer I should be sitting, but I think that taking 5-20 minutes a day is better than not at all. Hopefully I’ll have more to say soon. Have a great night, namaste.

100 Days of Meditation Day 11 & 12: Getcha Head in the Game

The past two days have been rough, I have been really struggling to sit. Today I only made it through about 6 minutes of my session before I gave up in frustration. I really want to create a meditation habit, but I think I’m so frazzled with work that I can’t even seem to calm down enough to sit. Thankfully I have Sunday, Monday and Tuesday off of work to unpack and work on relaxing. That’s exactly what I intend to do. So I apologize I don’t have two days worth of thoughts to share, I’ve been barely able to keep still for five minutes.

100 Days of Meditation Day 11: Cut Off

Today I was exhausted but couldn’t seem to fall asleep for a nap after I got home from work. I’ve noticed that I’ve been incredibly lonely recently. I’m missing my little brothers senior year of high school because I’m half way across the country from him. I work all the time so I have no friends outside of work. I’m never down in the city and see friends from college.

I feel like I’m slowly becoming more and more cut off from the world. Honestly none of that has anything to do with my session tonight. There were no words in meditation. Just music today. I sat. I guided myself back when I found myself off track. Nothing special. Guess I have to write today off as a bad day with nothing to say.

Namaste. 

100 Days of Meditation Day 10: head bobbing

I feel like I haven’t really had a break through day of yet. I feel like I’m just sitting in silence for 10-20 minutes at a time. Listening to the guided mediation. I haven’t really gotten to the point where I feel like I’ve made any sort of personal progress with anything.

That all being said. With all the chaos and turmoil I’ve been experiencing between work and the move and not having time to unpack and organize the apartment… Maybe some small daily silences aren’t such a bad thing. I have a nightly meditation to look forward to. At the close of my day I have time to sit down and just clear my head a little. Detach myself from the immediate crazy.

I guess you could say that while I don’t see any outward changes, there is a small inner peace that keeps me anchored in a sea of chaos. On top of that its a small bit of time that I’m completely unplugged and that’s definitely something I need to work on.

I don’t have a lot else on my mind tonight.

Until tomorrow, namaste.